I just need to voice. I lost my Mum on the 2nd of August. She had major surgery in April and was in hospital from then onwards. She had every complication you could think of, including paralysis caused by the op. She fought and fought and was getting better, we would have coped with the paralysis, she would still have had a life.
Then she caught a massive infection and went downhill very quickly. The doctors decided that withdrawing treatment was the right option as they were supporting her 100%.
They turned the support off and she died 10 minutes later, both my brother and I were with her. Watching her go was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
I am still numb, the funeral passed in a blur, I still dont think ive accepted that she has gone.
I live away and spent every wknd travelling to the hospital, then coming back and working all wk.
I lost my Dad 18 mths ago and was still coming to terms with that when this happened.
Within the last 18 mths I have lost both parents, left a long term relationship, moved house with my 3 young children and changed jobs. I honestly dont know whether I am coming or going.
My ex has been great with the kids but I have no-one where I live. My brother lives where my mum did but has his own problems.
I really need to get my act together, my house is a mess, im not eating properly and just want to sleep to block it all out.
I dont know what to do to move forward. She was my best friend and Im so lost without her.
Im sorry for the saga but really needed to offload.