Four weeks, One day and Im struggling

[FlamingGoat]

Four weeks and One day ago my Mum died at 1.11am. We couldn't raise her on the phone so I asked her friend to call round. They found her on the floor unresponsive.
The hospital decided that she was very very poorly and asked me to come straight down. We drove over 600 miles to try and get to her but didn't make it in time. She died with her friend holding her hand.
The next two weeks turned into a blur. The council wanted their house back ASAP. We had to strip it of all carpets etc the day after her funeral.
Fast forward to this week and I'm back in my house surrounded by boxes of memories. The house is stuffed. I feel like I cant breathe.
I need to grieve but can't. I just feel so angry all the time. I have lost my Mum and even though I live far away, I have lost my Home. Work is a real struggle. I have no patience at all with anyone . My friends have all but ignored me since hearing the news.
No real point to this post except I need to vent and maybe the kindness of internet strangers will go some way to helping.

Sorry for your loss, *FlamingGoat], losing a parent is so hard, especially suddenly.
At this stage it's just a case of getting through the day.
Is it possible for you to take some time off work, to maybe get away for a few days to somewhere where you can some space to be peaceful, walk in the fresh air and have some peace?
Then go back and sort out the stuff that can be discarded or recycled, keeping the stuff that matters stored until you have the strength to deal with it later? That way you won't feel so hemmed in by everything.
It's awful that your friends are not being supportive, sometimes people just don't know what to say, or erroneously think that they are helping by 'respecting your privacy' or similar. If you need to talk, you can always ring Samaritans for a sympathetic listener. I did after a bereavement, when I just wanted to talk, and it helped a little bit to be able to get stuff off my chest to an anonymous person.
If you are getting very down, don't hesitate to see your GP.

so so shit. It will get less shit, it really really really will.