Buried my partner 11 weeks ago

[grumpymamma]

I'm new to MN.
I'm due my 3rd (partners 2nd) baby in 3 days via csection.
I'm not coping, I'm delirious on grief. I'm absolutely shattered but sleep evades me. How am I supposed to go on?
I'm so alone

Didn't want to read and run, have you real,life support? It's early days and your hormones will be all over the place ((Hugs))

Sorry for your loss grumpymamma

I was 7mths pregnant with DD2 when Dd1 died. It was the most horrendous time of my life. It's nearly 3years since she died.

What age are your dc's?

I’m so sorry. I can’t inagine how you must be feeling.

But you can go on for the sake of your beautiful DC. Can you call the samaritans for someone to listen to. Or keep talking here.

Your midwife should be able to point you in the direction of some practical help. .

Thinking about it, my midwife was a great support to me. My GP was also good at the time. It was after dd was born i really needed support.

So very sorry, I hope you’ve got some support, so many different emotions going on for you all.

When my DH died I got a lot of support from WAY, widowed and young.
They have online support, I got to know a few widows that had been pregnant when their partner died..

Would you like to tell us about him?

Oh my goodness, you poor love

Is the c-section a personal choice one, or a medical need one? I.e could the relevant people possibly be persuaded to squeeze it back a few days in the hope you can actually sleep? You're circumstances are pretty exceptional.

In terms of trying of sleep when you can't, a boring bit of radio on in the background can block out thoughts and give you something to listen to until you just crash out. Can even help to leave it on all night humming away in the background. BBC Radio 4 or 3 might fit the bill.

Keep talking here as much you want; there's always someone up x

I was reading you other thread before and feel truly sorry for you. Do you have any friends that can help support you ? Where about sub the country are you ? X

You poor thing. I am truly sorry. Please keep talking if it helps. You are in my thoughts x

I read your other thread and I'm honestly heart sorry for you. If I were close by I would 100% help, would it help you to give a vague location?
Or would you like to tell us about your partner? It must be hard with only children to talk to

Is today your section day OP?

Thinking of you and praying all goes smoothly. I hope you are able to find some joy in meeting your new baby amongst all the sadness. Don't worry if you don't though, it also OK for it to just feel hard.

I've been thinking of you since that other thread. Does your medical team know about the situation you are in? Is there anyone around you that you could reach out to?