my mum died by suicide in December after a shortish psychiatric illness and in horrific circumstances. in march in found I was unexpectedly pregnant with a baby due on her 1st anniversary. a fortnight ago I had heavy bleeding and was convinced i was miscarrying but nonetheless travelled 200 miles to my Grans funeral at which we also buried mum's ashes. I had a scan and told the pregnancy was fine but continued bleeding only to discover the baby has died on my birthday. all attempts to speed up the miscarriage over the past few days have failed (I. e. medicine) and it's mum's inquest (200 miles away) on Wednesday. I'm besides myself as I want to get there for closure but it looks increasingly unlikely and I've got this baby to grieve for too.