I know its silly but feeling very low

[lissielou]

its almost 1y since my 2nd confirmed mc, 4th in total. it was at 8w and i cant stop thinking about it.

my ep in feb was around ny due date for that pg and i keep remembering the mw's reaction as she did the scan. from jovial "oooh, i remember you..." to silence.

just needed a rant x

lissielou x

Not silly at all, lissielou. Totally understandable. Just let yourself go with it for the time being. Chances are you'll start to feel better very soon. Allow yourself a bit of grieving time. Hope the rant helped a bit x

Not silly at all

Nothing constructive - just cheesy {hugs}. You've been so much - try to stay strong and hopeful (I know I'm a hypocrite).

XxXxXxX I miscarried twice at this time of year too.

im just fed up. i know that theres a point where we will have to stop ttc. and on the 4th when we see the specialist i have an inkling that it wont be good news. i have a vague memory of waking up from the ep op and the doc telling me that things werent good, ivf was our best option.

sorry, i know im being self-indulgant here. just feel like such a failure

you are not self indulgent
you are not a failure
it has happened to many people
we all get down
you go back up again

best.

you're not being silly or self indulgent.

are you seeing the specialist next month?

oh lissie a rememberance garden for all of you

yes. we get the results of the blood tests on the 4th.

fm, thats lovely, thank you x

((((((((((((((lissie))))))))))))))))

i wondered why i hadn't seen you on here lately

everyone around me seems to get pg at the drop of a hat, then 9m later out pops a baby. im fed up of feeling like this and fed up of blaming myself.

I'm so sorry, I feel down too after my 2nd MC life seems so unfair and am really scared of reaching my 1st due date in July it seems to be coming round so quickly. I haven't got any advice just wishing you strength for these saddest of moments.

Hi Lissie, after being such a good ear for me, i really hope things pick up for you soon, you deserve a break... Thinking of you.... x

thank you all for listening. feel a bit better today

Hi Lisslielou. The fact is -- it's not fair.
All the losses shouldn't have happened to you.
They shouldn't happen to anybody. And it's especially unfair that they happened to you repeatedly. I have nothing to offer to you as consolation in any form, but you have been so very kind to me when I had all the bleeding and was worried about having an ectopic. Thank you.

So do you think the consultants advice to try IVF is till valid although you had a BFP afterwards? I thought that was a very good sign from a physical standpoint (not the emotional rollercoaster)?

I think of you.

It's not silly at all, totally understandable. I'm fast approaching what would have been my due date- 8th June- if I hadn't mc the first time (had 2 now)and I'm struggling a bit. I always wanted to be well into another pg by the time my due date came and it jsut hasn't happened

Not silly at all, you've been through quite an emotional time of it and are still grieving for all you lost LOs. I'm still smarting about both of my MCs and I've just passed the anniversary of the last one. I actually forgot on the day, then felt awful and guilty as I should have remembered. I've just planted two passion flowers side by side in the garden as an act of remembrance and feel much better about things now, but the grief doesn't ever go away completely.

From what I've seen of your posts on here you've been through a lot, and have done well to have bounced back, so if every so often you feel a bit low...rant away, its what we're all here for!

Hey lissie - the little man you've got is so very lovely that who can blame you for wanting another so much?

lissie hows you sweetheart? (((((((((((((((((lissie and family)))))))))))))))))

lissie

Its nearly a year since my missed mc too and i don't feel i have made ANY progress at all.

I'm so sorry Lissie, i have killed your thread