Finding it all to much

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I lost my little girl when I was 20 weeks pregnant, this was almost 4 weeks ago.

I'm all over the place. I'm angry, upset, feel guilty and at times numb. Some days I lay in bed just crying all day. I make out to the world I'm coping but I'm not. I'm all over the place and finding it all just to much to cope with.

It's caused arguments between me and my partner and we've both said things we didn't mean. He hides his feelings and gets on with things where as I struggle to get on with day to day life.

I don't know why I'm posting tbh I'm just really struggling tonight and just want Someone to tell me it gets easier.

I've never lost a loved one before apart from my grandad but I was to young to understand so this is the first time I've ever really dealt with losing a loved one.

OP

It’s still very early days.

I’ve not been there, so I’m not going to wave a magic wand because I don’t, first hand, know. But I will say that having observed friends go through similar, they learn to live with the loss in a way which I’m sure was unimaginable in the early days.

It does get easier, because it has to.
But unfortunately there isn't a way of fast forwarding through the agony of the early grief you're in now.
One thing that will help a bit is stopping pretending to wider world that you're okay; you're not, and you need people to lean on other than your partner, who is processing his grief so differently.
I'm really sorry you feel guilty because there is absolutely nothing to feel guilty about.

Hi there.

I've not been exactly where you are but I have had 2 miscarriages (pre- 15 weeks).

The short answer is yes, it will get easier.

Its incredibly sad and I'm sure you are grieving for what might have been.

That's normal.

All I can suggest, is that you accept there is a deep sadness that you will feel and have to live with, but it's not the summation of your life.

It's not something you will ever forget but the pain will lessen with time