I’m struggling a year later, I think it’s planning my wedding that’s done it.

[Lostmum72]

I feel alone even though I’m not. I’m planning our wedding for this August, my Dad died last Xmas after an awful battle with cancer, I knew he wouldn’t make it to my wedding but now it’s becoming harder for some reason. My mum also died of cancer 18 years ago now and I still miss her too. My only sister has fallen out with me, I’ve tried building bridges and she doesn’t want to know, I didn’t hear from her even in my Dads Anniversary 😞. I feel so low and upset is it normal to feel like this after a year ?

I am sorry for your loss and the pain you are going through.

All grief is individual, even amongst siblings, as we all have our own way of dealing with it. Saying that though, I think it is quite normal to still be in pain after only 1 year, especially together with all the other emotions tumbling around your head.

What caused the rift with your sister and can anything be done as yet to heal it?

Perhaps counselling would help you over the next few months, to organise your thoughts so you can focus on your wedding and plans for the future. Your grief will always be there but it may allow you to channel it better.