Awful six months

[Mrsdraper1]

Just had the most awful 6 months and I need someone to talk to.
In July my BIL (sister's hubby) died suddenly from an aneurysm. He was only in his forties. Left behind his twoDC's and 2 SDC's.
In November my cousin in his early 40's with 2 very young DC's had a cardiac arrest caused by a blood clot and died.
On Friday it was his funeral and that day we got the news that my DH's cousin committed suicide. DH is devastated. Cousin was like a big brother. He was godfather to one of our DC's.
My mum is having an op over christmas that will tell us if she has cancer or not.
I'm just reeling from all this and trying to support everyone.
I have gone to the gynacologist today and she thinks I am in Perimenopause.
I just can't take anymore. I'm so worried about so many family members and I'm scared stiff about mum.
We have moved further away and I don't know anyone here so that's making it even harder. I've got no one to talk to.
Am sitting here on my own in the kitchen crying, trying not to let DH hear me.

How has today gone?

Hello,
she went in to hospital at 7am. Dad rang me to say she had gone to theatre but I haven't heard anymore. He was expecting her back to the ward around 5pm.
Just trying to decide whether to text him.
Been a mess today, DH has been hugging me lots and he took charge and when I said I had a lot to do but didn't know where to start he just said "Right, first drink a brew" "Now have a shower" then we made a list and he helped decide what to do. So I did some hoovering and folded a bit of washing and I went out for a walk to get some fresh air.
He said he's gonna do more christmas stuff so I don't have to run around. He works from home and to be honest it's been a godsend just lately as can hug whenever, even when he's on the phone!
Thank you for thinking of me, very touched that you did.
I will update later when I have heard from dad. Don't want to mither but I need to hear something.
Thanks very much

Hello Mrs.D
Looking in on you, how are things with Mum?
(So sorry for not calling in earlier, my internet was down for a few days.)
Just to say you are in my thoughts.

Thanks Traffig
I haven't been back because I was away staying with mum.
She has got cancer.
The op was a success and they are saying that it wasn't as widespread as they thought which is good. Waiting to hear what the next treatment is.
She is doing well physically from the op.
Back at home now, feel very low.

, Mrsdraper1

Such a hard row to hoe.