Feeling like you can't let go during counselling

[alazuli]

Hello,

I'm part-way through bereavement counselling. I've spent the past 18 months since my mum's death trying to push all my feelings deep down inside of me and am finding it really hard to let go. I rarely cry in front of my counsellor. Anyone else gone through this? How do I get over the hump?

I feel like I'm not making the most of my sessions. They feel like more of chore than a cathartic release. I have had counselling before and it wasn't like this. Before I started them, I was feeling like I was going crazy so I do need this.

I can relate to this - I didn't shed a tear in two years of therapy! Do you feel like you should be crying? I know I did. But of course, there's no should about it. Perhaps the hump is feeling that you ought to be crying? There's no one correct way to behave in therapy.