Df is dying and I feel exhausted how long will I feel like this after he dies

[whatisforteamum]

Df has been I'll on and off for hrs so has DM they both have battled incurable cancer.Recently.I've been working long hrs and full of energy.This last couple of weeks he has been I'll and now is in hospital after being treated for spinal cord compression and lymphodema. I've just had my days off and visited.we found out his kidneys are now failing too.
I feel exhausted for no real reason and can't get motivation d to do much.......how !
Long will I feel so tired and achy when he actually dies Its so hard to wat h him struggle to walk or take information in it is so draining with all the family at odds too.

So sorry for what you're going through. My df died from cancer recently and my experience was that I felt quite relieved almost after he passed, sorry if that sounds odd but in his case he was so ill that it seemed kindest that he was out of pain. Have you read/googled the stages of grief? It helped me understand that it's ok to feel angry/distressed/detached etc.

I can empathise with you feeling very tired, I was exhausted from all the travelling to visit, everything bring uncertain etc. Take care and so sorry you're in this situation.

So sorry you have been through this too.I can imagine it is a relief I'm going to work today to feel normal.I'm quite excited to go.D f is very I'll with his kidneys failing now.He has been I'll loads in the last few yes but this is the worst.So awful to see him so unlike his positive,dignified self.I feel like someone took my batteries out.:(