I miss my son so much

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Nearly 6 months have passed.
The inquest is coming up and I am dreading it.
I thought I was feeling/coping better but as the inquest approaches I am increasingly tearful and just finding everything so hard.

Don't know what I hope to gain from this thread really, but I got so much kindness and support from MNers when DS died, I just need a hand hold to get through this ordeal.

I know it is going to be pretty horrific.

I feel for you.

Here's an antipodean hand to hold, endoftheline

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Hope you got a bit more sleep last night.
Glad your son is feeling a bit better and stronger, he just needs some time to work through it all and decide what to do whatever he decides he can always change his mind, its not set in stone. Must be hard for him too at times being so far away from you all.

Thinking of you all today.

He gave me the first chapter of the book he was writing to read and check the grammar and spelling.
I still have it on my lap top.
DH is just now writing to the priest who baptised him.
I just can't stop the tears.
Such a waste.

Endof, I am so sorry. ❤

Just feel so tearful all the time.
DH is finding it very hard to cope with me.
I hate upsetting him but I just seem to be getting worse.

Do you have any other support?

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I don't know anything about your son's death but I am a journalist and I wanted to warn you in a very gentle way way that you may not be able to keep the inquest private like you want. As a local reporter I often attended coroner's court and members of the public can go along too. I really don't want to upset you but I thought it was best if you knew in advance that there could be other people there and in theory it could be covered in the press. Of course this might not happen - and chances are it won't - but I thought it would be terrible if you weren't aware it was a possibility.

Thinking of you and your family.

Oh God. I really hope not. That would really tip me over the edge.
How ghoulish and disrespectful.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your son.