NEED TO RANT!

[lissielou]

just got home from hosp after my ectopic pg, had 3 mcs since nov 05. yesterday was the edd for my 2nd mc. i was v lucky tube had ruptured (wasnt even going to change scan date) and was rushed back theatre on fri with severe internal bleeding.

i feel so angry! my baby has had to die so that i could live. he was the size of a malteser and i was so excited.

to top it off my remaining tube is covered in adhesions and is blocked, the chances of having another ep are vvv high coz of the standard of my remaining equipment.

i feel so let down by my body, and i know how lucky i amto be alive but i still feel like ive let down yet another baby.

Oh darling {{HUGS}} xXx You have not let those babies down, at all... {{HUGS}} xXx

I was so sorry to hear the news. Words seem so inadequate at the moment. I cannot begin to imagine what you have been through nor how upset and angry you must feel, but if the ectopic hadn't been detected, as I understand it, both you and your baby would have been at risk and it could have been so much worse. Like this, your ds and dh have you safely back and you must have a chance of conceiving again and having a safe pregnancy - I am sure that with the medical technology around nowadays, there must be ways around this... I am not trying to belittle your loss because to lose a baby after everything you've been through is - I can't even think of a word to describe the enormity of it... But that is still better than your dh and ds losing you...

lissielou, I'm so sorry. I understand why you feel angry. {{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}}}

Anisse(MrsNoah) here.(Changed my name at beginning of my pg as my sister didnt yet know after just going thru the same as you.)

Lissielou, I am SO glad you are ok and home, we have been very worried about you.

I am so sorry for what's happened to you. It's just not fair. I understand what you are saying completely. Feeling lucky to be alive doesnt really touch it I suppose just yet.
What does your dh say?

Only a couple of weeks ago you were giggling with me about going to wake up MrNoah for no4.
I lost my baby too this weekend.
We can be sad together

lissie

(((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

bless you

you have not let your baby down

not at all

but i think you need to go through the grieiving process and all that it entails, which is anger, rage, feeling let down, feeling you have done something, sadness, frustration..all of it

and work through it

can you get some counselling?

i have a card for you BTW, if you get a mo to email me your addy

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I am so sorry to hear your news - can't think what to say except I'm thinking of you.

If you want to rant some more, we're here for you. Take care.

hi there! i've i'm quite new on here but just wanted you to know you are not alone! last week i had an ectopic (rushed surgery) and a miscarrage-apparently i was pregnant with twins one got stuck in the tube and the other made it to the womb but didn't survive! don't know how you feel but i kind of don't know how to feel at the moment-i am only 24, i have 2 children but still hurts! i'm here if you want to talk!

Tangy I am so sorry.

Hey Lissie
How are you doing?
So sorry to hear your news. Big hugs to you ds and your caring dh.