I don't really know why I'm posting but just feeling so sad.
Nanna had stage 4 lung cancer, we found out 4 weeks ago. She's had dementia for the past 10 years which has been the worst part I think. I feel like she was robbed of those years.
I saw her last night-she had been in a care home and I drove over to see her and my mum, who had been with her all day. It was quite distressing.
She could no longer talk and her eyes looked dead but she was really agitated. She kept trying to sit up, pull at her clothes, reaching out. We sang to her, kissed and cuddled her and told her we loved her. I am so so glad we did that, she knew we were there. At one point she pulled herself up, leaned into me and gave me a whisper of a kiss. That, despite everything, was really quite special.
Sending love out to all others going through the pain of losing someone. It is shit xxx