Things just keep getting worse, im so desperate

[LeahRose09]

Hi everyone, I hope you're all ok. Im not too sure if I've posted in the right place, but I just need someone to tell me things will be ok.

My partner was diagnosed with stage 4 stomach cancer in January this year and passed away in March. It literally tore my world apart, I still can't get over the fact he's gone :(

I have a 2 year old with him and I do my best to keep happy when she's around me, but when she asks where daddy is, my heart breaks all over again :(

Things are really dire right now, I had to give up work to look after all of us, which I loved because it meant we were all together for his final weeks. I kept busy looking after him, my daughter and the house. Now he's gone, I find that I have too much time to think no matter how busy I am :(

I'm just so heartbroken no matter how hard I try to keep a brave face. I've no money, hardly any food. I've not washed my hair for 2 weeks, I've not showered for 4 days and I've hardly eaten in a week just to make sure my daughter eats, I mainly just eat any left overs. I really don't know what to do anymore. I'm 22 and my life and my world is falling apart. It feels like I can't save it no matter how much I try.

Are there any charities who are able to help out in times like these? I've tried a quick search but I just can't muster up the energy to keep looking. It just feels easier to give up than carry on. My daughter is the only one keeping me on earth.

Sorry for my post being so morbid. I just don't know what to do anymore, I can't cope now. I'm trying but it's so hard. I just want him back so much :'( xx

It might also be worth going back to the original food bank to ask their advice, sometimes there is some flexibility in the policy

So sorry this is happening for You

It's ok blue, I'll get sorted one way or another. The main thing is my daughter has food, that's all I can ask for. I've asked them but I can only have 2 referrals x

How are you doing OP. I've been thinking about you.

Op have pm'd you- please have a look x

Oh OP, big hug to you. What a terrible time you've had, and the last thing you should have to worry about is money. Could you get in touch with citizens advice to check you're getting all the benefits you can, or get help to manage money/sort out debts? Church may be a good source of general support, if you'd feel comfortable with that. You need practical help, but you also need people to talk to- coping with a toddler on your own is tough, and you're coping with a huge loss too.

www.home-start.org.uk/

This is a really good organisation, and they may have volunteers near you.

So sorry for your loss.

I don't know if anyone has suggested this, but please phone your health visitor if you haven't already. They can put you in touch with other agencies and support you and your dd to access the help you need.

I second the health visitor Leah I know what sometimes they can be interfering but I do think this needs to be your first stop You need some support emotionally do and they will help

Definitely contact your health visitor, this is the exact situation they are able to help with. There are loads organisations and charities that can help and they can refer you and support you through this horrible time. I'm so sorry for your loss

Hi OP so sorry for your loss .
Sorry if I missed this but are you claiming benefits ? Citizens advice as well as the Job centre can advise for free.
Home start is helpful..they enable you to access various things as well as help you by talking through things and signposting to cruse etc, and children's centres can provide snacks and play sessions for your daughter and a safe place to play as well as inform you of other facilities.