DM died on Friday. Although she never accepted it and talked as if there was always another chance, I'd known for a long time she would die (and so did she, if not quite so soon) and four weeks beforehand she was told she was DNR.
She was a small woman, but a real force to be reckoned with. She was talented, creative, generous, practical, had so much sense ... and now she just isn't.
Ok she's here in my memory and in all the things she made, but that's never going to be enough for me. Life just seems to be carrying on. One of my DBs is back at work (I handed my notice in to care for her and now I don't feel I have it in me to go back and work it). We are planning to sell her home - no choice, it's going to be a financial drain. I have cleaned her bathroom and kitchen. It's just so grim that life goes on. I feel sick and angry.
Just venting. I'm waiting for counselling but it will be a while.
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Hoe can someone who is so very much there just go? Missing my mum.
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JenniferYellowHat1980 · 11/02/2016 19:50
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