Tomorrow will be a year since my beautiful mum passed away. My mum passed away very suddenly; she had gone up to bed for a sleep and never woke up. I remember the day like it happened yesterday. To be truthful I don't even think I have processed anything that has happened.
Me and my dad carried cpr out on my mum but it was unsuccessful. Unfortunately we were too late however the paramedics did say there was nothing we could have done.
I never got to have a final conversation with her to say goodbye or even that I loved her.
I'm dreading christmas because it's a constant reminder of what happened and I never got to have a last christmas with my full family.
We knew this year was going to be difficult however I never expected to loose my mum.
Since then my mums dad has had to go into
a home and he has deteriorated massively. My dads dad has got cancer and has been given a year to live.
Tbh I don't know what I'm writing about im just wittering I just feel so alone at this time all I want to do is sleep and drink to try to block it all out. I just want my mum.