I lost my granddad just over 2 years ago (have a couple of old threads on this board) and tonight, for no reason, I'm really struggling :(
I think it's because I'm volunteering in a school and everyone's in Christmas mode and I just want him so badly right now :( He lived with me and some other family so I'm still in the house that holds lots of memories. I just want a hug from him, he gave amazing hugs, he was 6 foot 5 and a big man, and he'd wrap little 5ft 2 me up in his arms and it was so warm and comforting.
Sorry, just needed to talk to someone, and don't want to in RL because, surely I should be OK now?
It's not fair - stupid cancer :(