Some of you might remember I posted on here in November when my husband passed away from stomach cancer.
Well this week we got news that my FIL has to start chemo for blood cancer next week.
The whole family is in shock again. I am trying my best to be strong for them all, but I am beyond worried about my BILs and MIL. She is going to have to take on the caring role, and she has always been looked after by him really. I am ready to help out as much as in can, but they live 2.5 hours away, and as I have a 3 year old I'm going to have to be careful about bugs and infections he might pick up from nursery.
I think essentially I can't believe that we are back here again so soon, and I just wanted to vent. The loss of DH is still raw with everyone, and while we are trying to be positive I think I have lost my optimistic outlook on things like this. I just assume the worst is going to happen, regardless of what the consultant says the average life expectancy is on this clinical trial...
If you've got this far, thanks for reading.