I hate November...

[dhwhoooooooo]

It is nearly a year ago that I had my stillborn son at 26 weeks. And ridiculously, next week would have been the due date of my second stillborn baby. I am feeling very sorry for myself and slightly shocked that I could have had this much 'bad luck' in one year!

Mumsnet is funny isn't it? Bit like having a diary when I was growing up - i only tended to write to it when I was feeling low or worried.

Sorry!

Don't be sorry, that's what MN is here for. If you don't mind I would like to give you a (((((hug)))) even though I don't really know you, because I have seen your threads in the past and think you are incredibly brave. You have had one hell of a year. I do hope the next one is much better.

greensleeves - hug accepted with much gratitude! Thank you.

Feel really funny about the New Year - I so want this one over, but in a funny way will be sad to let it go - if that makes sense.

Grrrrr....will I ever feel 'normal' again and think 'normally' again?!!

I think I can understand why the New Year might feel like a bit of a milestone for you, and you might have mixed feelings about it - like crossing a line, from the year in which it all happened into a different phase. I think that's quite a good, healthy way of looking at it - the New Year this year really will be a new beginning for you in a really deep way.

I'm no expert but I do think you will feel "normal" again, and happy - I just think you need to allow yourself to take all the time you need. It really hasn't been very long, has it?

I might be talking utter nonsense though, people's experiences of grief are so individual.

GS, you are absolutely right. It hasn't been very long at all.

Thanks