My Aunt has died

[HerculaPoirot]

About an hour ago, it was not unexpected. I feel so stunned though.

I can't talk to my siblings yet, they are five/six hours behind me and there is no reason to give them a sleepless night. They can't do anything so it's time enough to give the bad news at breakfast time. My DH is not contactable at work (emergency services and not on own station this weekend either).

I can't cry yet because it's just me and DD here, she's only five so can't understand.

Aunt was the closest sibling to my (deceased) dad. She was my link to Dad's family. I will miss her so much. She was full of life and fun. It was all taken away after a massive brain haemorrhage four weeks ago. I know it's better for her (she was fiercely independent) but I'm so upset for me selfish

I wish it was 12pm so I can talk to my sister

Sorry to hear of your very sad loss and that you are having to deal with it alone at the moment.
And you are definitely not selfish, you have already put the needs of your siblings and your DD before your own even though you obviously would like someone to talk to. Are you sure you can't ring your sister though regardless of the time, you sound close so im sure she wouldn't want you to be feeling all alone.

Thanks Lifesalemon. DH came home, so I got a big hug. My friend has taken DD off with her kids for a few hours while I meet the cousins/assorted relatives for funeral planning. Big family scattered over the globe so there will be a lot to organise. I just had a long cry with my sister, so glad for Skype. I know this is better for her than the half life she'd have had if she continued to live.

Sorry to hear about your aunt. I'm glad your friend is able to help by looking after your daughter.