In shock and what happens now?

[babyonboard]

This morning I was dashing around doing the usual routine then suddenly got spotting which led to massive bleeding within the hour ,
we have spent most of the day in hospital but I walked out during our scan which told me the inevitable.
I am at a loss and feel crazy, we had guests and I told them to 'get out' , quite aggresively, when we got home, I am finding it hard to take care of our baby and that makes me feel even worse. I wish I'd stayed at the hospital to hear what happens now, as I'm clueless, but maybe, in fact definitly, don't want to know. I can't call anyone to let them know as it doesn't seem real, and I still don't think it's true.
I want to curl up in bed and sleep for a week and it'll all be over.
Thats all.

Hi Bob glad you're feeling more positive and am pleased that things have sorted themselves out.Try and take some time out to chill ( difficult with O i'm sure!) Take carexxx

P.s Are you still on the same mobile number as on Yahoo? Just thought i'd drop you a text to say hi!!

I remember feeling a sense of relief when it was over, although it did seem wierd just picking up where I'd left off, IYSWIM. I hadn't said I was pregnant, so everyone just thought I'd had a stomach bug. Life just went on, and I wanted shout "I'm NOT better, I lost my BABY", but of course I didn't. But time goes on, and it does start to feel better.

Maybe write down the questions for the consultant? You don't want to come away with any loose ends.

Take care of yourself and your family.

thanks.xxx

It really is just a relief to know theres nothing more to 'do' iyswim..
and it sounds mad but up until this morning at the scan I had a secret hope they were wrong all along, which I knew was irrational, but just to have that thought fully severed is another relief..
L&Smum..my number is different now..I will update it on yahoo though... thanks again.x

Oh , and yes writing down questions is such a good idea..I knew what I wanted to ask before I went in but being in a spin of motions in bright clinical lights just isn't conducive to thinking clearly...I will do that.

I aree with you about that awful hope, against all the evidence. It is a relief to be spared it I think.

Take it easy.

Hey bob, just wanted to quickly say glad things went ok today, and it was 'easier' for you than anything clinical.

Take it easy(ish!) and look after yourselves babe xxx

hiya babyonboard,

i just wanted to send you a massive but gentle hug.

i went for my dating scan on the 21st, i was supposed to be 13 weeks, and out of the blue they said my baby was measuring 8 weeks and had no heartbeat. i have been lost ever since.

i had to have a d&c on wednsday as my body just would allow me to miscarry naturally.

i just wanted you to know that i'm here, and i understand - my heart is breaking and my world is upside down. have no idea what to do next.

this was my 4th, much wanted baby - so i'm trying to deal with 7 and 6 year old boys, and my 16month old daughter. from time to time they are a comfort and a welcome distraction. other times i am so desperate for some head space i dont know what to do with myself.

i just wanted one more baby. thats all.

anyway, dont mean to go on about myself, just wanted you to know i'm here

xxxx

dippyhippy I am so so sorry and wish I knew what to say other than offering empathy..
do you have cat enabled? I tried to send you one but it wouldn't work..if so please cat me
BoB
xxxx

hiya babyonboard,

i think i have enabled it, i am a computer numpty - didnt even know it was there!

thankx for your kind words,

xxxx