crying for my babies.

[jaspersslave]

4 years ago i was pregnant with twins but they were born to early and only survived for 4 days when we switched of there machines while they lay in my arms and i sang to them. it was the hardest day of my life and i can still remember there little faces i called them alfie and jessica i now have another little boy who is 18 months and is really healthy. the only thing is there is still so much pain i cry every night for my babies and think about them all the time what can i do to let some of the pain go away. when i think back to the furneral and there tiny little coffins i cry so much im sick. i dont ever want to let go of then but i just need to lose some of the pain

oh I am so sorry you have been through this. I was very moved by your post. Sorry I can't offer you any comfort - there are a lot of people here who will be able to help. Take care of yourself xxxx

I am so sorry you have been through this.

I know this isnt the same but when i had a m/c 7yrs ago, i bought a rose bush in memory of my lost child. The rose bush withered away when i moved into this house so i bought an apple tree and buried the rose bush underneath the apple tree.
I often go in the garden and sit and think of what could of been iykwim
and this gives me some peace and lessens the pain.

Take care of yourself sweetie
hugs
xxx

did you ever talk to SANDS and tamba - they have a counselling service.

It sounds like you need help to move on from that terrible experience.

HELLO THERE, i lost a baby stillborn, at 37 weeks a year and a half on and in no better of a place infact i am very down and low, i miss him so much, and i ache to hold him, i now have another son of 71/2 months inwho i absolutely treasure and am so gratefull for, i petrified he too will die, and worry endlessly, my family is incomplete and without my son who died i fell as though there will always be a void in my life, and thats something to deal with for the rest of my life and im onlky 23 i miss him so much,,, i am often around if u want a chat and have yahoo messenger , take care xx