I hate today

[WhyTheBigPaws]

It's the anniversary of the day I lost my 8 year old sister and 20+ years later my much-longed for second child. Nobody IRL cares knows except my Mum - DH doesn't remember that today has any special significance - so I'll say what I want to say here instead.

I wish my sister had lived, she would have been my best friend as she was in the years she was here, and we would have that special sister relationship that I envy other people for so much. She would also have been a better friend to me than most of those I have now :(

I wish my baby had lived. My life would have been so different with a second child and I don't think I'll ever have another now. I wish DD could have the chance to know a sibling and I hate that her brother or sister was taken away from us.

Life really is shit sometimes isn't it - watch your sister die then lose your baby on a day you're feeling awful anyway. Great timing :(

Hugs to anyone else feeling the need to post on here today, couldn't give a toss if it's not MN-correct to offer them, think we could all do with whatever comfort we can get :(

What a thoroughly shit day today is for you, I hope it passes quickly.

You, your sister and your baby will all be in my thoughts today.

Take care x

A ((((hug)))) for you. Thinking if them and you x

Poor you! Anniversaries are horrible, aren't they? Days for reflection and sadness, a few tears too.

What will you do today that will make you feel some peace? Plan something nice, even of its just plant something it he garden, go for a long walk or pop into your local church to light some candles.

Just been for a long walk listening to some very shouty music, I feel so sad and angry :(

So sorry about your sister and your baby. I feel for you. My baby died two months ago on the same day that I lost my boyfriend to cancer 14 years earlier. Like you, I don't think I'll be able to have another baby and my DD will never know what it is to have a sibling. I am very close to my sister and brother and I feel so sad that my DD will not get to experience this for herself. Sorry this won't make you feel much better but sometimes it helps to know you are not alone. Wishing you strength xxx

So sorry for your pain today & every day.

Hello Why. I feel for you. It's ghastly to lost a sibling and what you say has so much resonance for me in how I feel about losing my sister.

Like you, I have lost my sister and also my child's sister, so I regret desparately for her that she will not have a sister in her life. It's so unfair. I try to console myself with knowing that she will not feel the lack in the same way that I do.

So sorry for everyone else who feels the way I do, life is so unfair at times :(

Thinking of you and them x