Can't quite understand why I feel this way.

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Hello,

I found out yesterday that my cousin has committed suicide, I have not seen him in years and we were not close. But it has absolutely and utterly floored me. I have been sent home from work as I just broke down. When my Nana died I didn't react like this. I am struggling to get my head around it.

Frownie I'm so sorry that's awful news. And that's why you are feelling the way you do! It has floored you, and why wouldn't it? You may not have been close but he's still a member of your family and someone you know. Also there's a difference between a young person comitting suicide and a Nana who died (in natural circumstances?).

Go with the grief. It's perfectly normal.

Ever I saw you on the other thread this week.

You must be devastated even to read this too. :(

I guess it is because he was your contemporary - it brings it closer because you identify with him. I think also suicide is always shocking, especially with someone you have some connection to.