My DFather died in mid-January and this week seems to have really floored me. It started with THE most vivid dream on Thursday night/v early Fri morning. He just appeared in this completely surreal dream and kept popping up smiling broadly in random points in it ( i knew he was dead itswim but was making a sort of reappearance0 ...in my dream my mum was driving away and i kept saying "but what about Daddy ?" and she said she needed to move on and leave him behind as he had gone...Not in a horrible way and I woke up crying and couldnt stop for quite some time which I havent really done much. The tears have just been really close to the surface since then. Find it difficult to verbalise to anyone in RL as I just cry and can't talk...
I know you lot all know what it feels like unfortunately...
I also feel so sad for my mum tomorrow as none of us can be there she lives a long way away and I know it will be a pianfully quiet day.
She is master of a brave face and we both avoid tricky subjects on the phone...
Anyhow just need to share...
Thanks for listening 