My birthday

[madasa]

Was my birthday yesterday. My first ever birthday without a card and a phone call from my dad....I miss him so much

I'll be 50 this year and it will be my first birthday without my mum. Not looking forward to it - there are so many anniversaries to cope with!

Sorry you've lost your mum TheFarSide....it's so hard isn't it?

Today would also have been my mum's birthday and probably my baby's birthday had I not lost him. I hate March :(

Madasa and Farside - thinking of you both. It's hard, isn't it? The first anniversary or two is difficult - very. But it eases as time goes on. Now I commemorate my parents' birthdays and times like that reasonably cheerfully - still shed tears but play music and even try to think about things that made them happy or laugh.

I know what you mean about the card and the call - my parents used to phone me on my birthday and sing 'Happy Birthday' - so now I sing it to myself...

Your post made me smile IssyPeach....I have some money from my dad's estate (would rather have my dad than all the money in the world) so I bought myself a birthday present from him yesterday...a charm for my bracelet.
I do think about things which my dad did which made me laugh....but sometimes I think about him and I can barely breathe from missing him so much.
I'm lucky...I have the most adorable dp and my 21 year old daughter is an angel...I just feel sad :(

madasa.what a lovely thing to do buy your self a charm for your braclet.when u touch it you can always remember your dad.My mum died a day before my birthday many years ago.I still dont like my birthdays because my mum isnt here no more.The saddest thing is she only cut her hand and died a week later from septasemia.If only we would have noticed. We did have the home doc out and he just said she had a bad dose of flu.dont be sad.I know i dont like january cause a lot of my loved ones have passed over on this month.Life does go on but there will always be a gap in your life but it does ease and remember the good times.xx

madasa. I am so sorry about your dad

I got a empty charm bracelet for my 40th. I buy a charm for my DD on her birthdays and at christmas, valentines etc. I miss being able to buy her presents and this way I get to go shopping for her. Perhaps you could do the same on your Dad's birthday?

Did he have a hobby or a special interest? My bracelet will be full of shoes and butterflies and hearts and musical notes

I hope you can have a nice birthday alongside your sad feelings x