We scattered Charlie's ashes on Sunday

[aziraphale]

And this is what I read:

If we could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried...
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried...
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too...
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.

I thought I would share. I don't have any words right now.

Beautiful. You are very brave. Sending loving support.

That is beautiful, well done for reading it out, I wrote & read out a poem at Tamsin's funeral; incredibly hard, but something we can do for them xx Thinking of you & Charlie, come back when you're able to find more words xx

This is a rhyme I used to sing to him in the morning when I was dressing him:
Little Charlie Bear, cha cha cha

Not much hair, cha cha cha
Little tiny underwear, cha cha cha

Little Charlie Bear

Bless you, so sorry. What a lovely little rhyme though xx

oh, what a touching poem. Very much resonates here. It must have been such a difficult day.

Thank you lovely ladies. I feel so angry right now. My period is due and stepson is here. Why can't I have a living baby? What the hell was so bad about Charlie that he had to go?

Oh aziraphale it's so bloody unfair isn't it? And being hormonal, and having DSS is just like a magnifying glass, on the gaping hole that Charlie left.

I can empathise as DH's ex went on to have two little girls... she smoked & got drunk through both of the pregnancies, yet has two healthy little girls, with no problems, yet I didn't smoke, drink, eat soft cheese, ate only low GI foods etc, etc...

There was nothing bad about your precious Charlie, life is cruel, and unfair, and you sound like such a lovely mum, who gave so much love to him in the little time you had him.

(((HUGS))) xx

And I can certainly see why having the DSS there would be like an extra knife wound. It's not his fault at all, but a reminder of what you haven't got, and of course you want your precious baby there... take care xx

What a beautiful poem, azira! I couldn't read anything at Sylvie-Rose's funeral. Dh did and it was all he could do to keep from crying. So I think you are brilliant to have been able to do it!
I love the Charlie Bear rhyme as well, so sweet!

what a lovely poem azira!