I lost my baby daughter on New Year's Eve, she was just 2 days old.
She was born by EMCS on Thurs 29th because I'd experienced reduced movements, and she wasn't breathing when she was born.
They transferred her to a neo-natal unit for intensive care - I saw her for 5 minutes about 5 hours after she was born before they trasnferred her; then they moved me the day after to be closer to her, so I didn't really see her until she was 1 day old, and she was totally covered in wires and tubes and things.
She died the following day when they removed the ventilator - her condition hadn't improved at all despite all the intensive treatment. We had her christened at the hospital, and we were able to bathe her and dress her before she passed away in our arms.
I know we were very lucky to have that time with her, but it just still feels so unreal. We are starting to think about funeral arrangements, which is so hard - we should be trying to cope with sleepless nights and feeding.
Everyone is being lovely, I just don't know what to do.
I went to register her birth yesterday - I had been so looking forward to doing that!
Not expecting anything - just wanted to write it down. I just feel so empty.