Ok so I'm 32 weeks my nan died just before christmas, I loved her so much, I would see her every other day. I have just freaked out about the funeral. I thought it was just anxiety so I drove to the crem twice to pootle about and reduce fears. I just feel that I can't face it in any shape or form, I dont want to see the box, talk to people about it, have my heart ripped out again.
This is not usually me, I am accustomed to death and feel strongly about being there to give someone a good send off/ support family - I feel shit about myself for not doing this but at the same time don't want to push myself and effect the baby. At the moment I am getting a lot of palpitations, stress sweats and I feel really low. My family have been really good about it and want me to take it easy. Just wanted to vent into cyberspace really and seek other peoples experience. xxx