My mum died 7 years ago today...

[Lucyloo81]

I just wanted to somehow remember my mum today - I have noone to share the grief with and that hurts so much. I'm an only child and at times like this I really wish I had someone to go to her grave with and remember her.

Feels like so long ago but at the same time I remember every minute from when I opened the door and got the news. She was only a few weeks away from her 50th birthday - big party planned and everything.

I miss her so much that I can't really even bring myself to look at photos or anything and I just have to keep my head down and get on with it. She'd have loved my 2 boys so much and I'm absolutely gutted they'll never get to know her.

I was only 23 when she died and I felt like we were just getting to the stage of having a really great adult relationship when she was died. She was such a great mum who had it tough, with my dad dying when I was ten but she just got on with it and enjoyed life and thats what I need to do too.

Oh you poor thing!!! Sending hugs. Do you have any friends nearby that an be with you to give you a real hug?

Massive hugs to you.I'm 5 yrs down the line. It's rubbish :( x

My DH did give me a lovely card and HUGE box of chocs this morning - its just that feeling of nobody else getting it that makes it hard for me.

Thanks for replying guys, I guess I just wanted to acknowlege it and it helps to see it written down.

Hugs back to you sleepatlast - its especially hard at xmas I find.

That must have been extremely tough that she died so close to Christmas, I don't think you'll ever shake the association.

My mother died around Easter/Mother's Day time; those things remind me of her, too.

Lucy big hugs to you.

I am 16 months down the line from losing my lovely mum...I cant imagine being 7 years down...and I bet it gets no easier.

Bless you and bless your lovely mum too!

Thanks all for your replies - you're right about xmas always having a certain amount of sadness now but my 2 lovely boys do help a lot.

I went up to her grave today but my ds2 woke after about 2 mins and screamed the place down so no time to really think too much or get upset anyway! In some ways a good thing I'm sure and prob what my mum would've wanted for me.

Betty I think in some ways it gets easier with time but in some ways it gets harder as your life changes more and more and its harder to remember what it was like having them around.

Its nice to talk about it today as I normally just steamroller on and don't mention it too much in case I get too upset.