I just want to scream. My lovely dad died very suddenly last November and it completely broke my mum for months. She's just started coming out of herself a bit more and just now we got the news that she has inoperable lung cancer. I'm 35 and I'm going to lose both my parents. I know that people go through worse than this, I can't imagine how I'd cope if something happened to my baby, but still this seems so fucking unfair. Only a year ago everything was perfect.
I feel like a terrible person but now that we've had the diagnosis I just want it to be over. I don't want her to suffer. We need to find out how far advanced it is, but the cancer has spread and she's continually having to take morphine - its terrifying how much worse she's got in a week.
I don't think I've got organising another funeral in me.