Little brother passed

[sunnysunnyshine]

i still can't quite believe I'm posting on here. It makes it more real.
My little brother was found dead at work 48 hours ago. He worked in a lab in a hospital and they think it may be due to a leakage of poisonous gas. It was on the news late thurs night but I missed it.
I just don't know what to do or quite how I'm going to deal with this unbearable pain. It's going to get worse the more it sinks in.
And seeing my parents pain is too much. We were such a tight knit family of 6. And now there are 5. It's too much pain to bear.
I know everybody says this, but he really was the kindest, funniest sweet person with the kindest soul. He was only 32.
I know nobody can do anything for me, but I just wanted to write.

I'm so sorry what a terrible shock for you all :( my first husband died when he was 34 and it seems so unfair when people die that young. Take care of yourself and if it helps you could tell us all about him?

I am so, so sorry. Have you a partner or friend with you?

Sunny, I am so sorry for your loss. I don't have any words to help you feel better but just want you to know that I'm thinking of you this morning. Brothers are very special and yours sounds especially so....I imagine he knew just how much you love him from the way you speak about him here. Sending you much strength and love. x

I'm so sorry. What a terrible loss to have to bear.

I know that there isn't much I can do or say to help, but I wanted to reply to your post and say that your kind, funny, sweet little brother sounds wonderful.

I hope that, in time, your memories of him bring smiles instead of (or as well as) tears. It must feel so raw right now. I'm so sorry.

I am really, really sorry for your loss sunny. My little brother died when he was just six in a house fire. That was 26 years ago. He now would have been the same age your brother was. All I can say is that over time it does get easier but when it happened it was impossible to comprehend. Wishing you lots of strength in the days, months and years ahead.

Thank you for your kind words. Sorry to those who have also lost loved ones.

Yes I'm with my husband who's being a great support and looking after our 1yo. Spending the days with parents and sisters who have come back to the family home. We will all travel to London on Monday to see him. Not sure I can cope with viewing him yet though. They should be doing an in depth post mortem today so that will hopefully give us some answers.

My god I just can't bear this. Why is it happening