Two girlfriends have died in the last year

[notasheep]

I am finding this so difficult to deal with-Tina(1)
43yrs had head on car crash with joyrider then stroke,Tina(2) 39yrs had breast cancer.
I am finding myself paranoid about death and thinking about it constantly.I know i am fit and well,both parents are still alive aged 77yrs and 76yrs,no cancer or heart disease in the family.
I look at dd and ds everyday and wonder how long i have left...dp was so supportive when they died.
Tina(1) was also my dd godmother and I am executor in her will so still very involved with her death.
I must stop writing this as i am feeling so bloody upset,angry,confused

only just came across this - when I was 19 I heard that three friends of mine had been killed in a car crash. This was in Australia, I'd spent 6 months there on a student exchange programme when I was 16 and those were the only people I'd kept in touch with, writing regularly etc. I'd wondered why I hadn't heard from my mate Joe for a couple of months, and then got a very long letter from his mum, including pictures of the car after the crash, newspaper cuttings, a picture of his grave etc.
I was really excited at first before I opened the envelope - it felt nice and fat - I thought oh goodie, Joe's sent loads of photos - and then that.
Anyway, it was really grim and took me a very long time to put it behind me properly, and they weren't even friends I'd see on a day-to-day basis, you have my heartfelt sympathy.

Sorry no help to you I know notasheep, but my best friend died 8 years ago from cancer. She knew how much I wanted a child and before she died

sorry can't go on i miss her so much

Mercy,just picked up message,8 years ago- i hope i havent upset you.

Its just so difficult with 2 parents alive at 77years and girlfriends passing away.But then life isnt suppose to be fair apparently

Notasheep, no please don't worry - thank you anyway!

It was v late for me to be up and I'd had a couple of glasses of cheap wine (yuk). I just felt quite emotional - but glad I said it because I had a good cry afterwards and then felt loads better.

I do miss her though, she was probably the most open minded, caring person I've ever met.

Best wishes to you and have a fab Christmas

A drink for absent friends,enjoy the festivities and happy 2006

Its a horrible time of year in one sense, as absent friends are what they are. My friend died last Christmas day, so this year will be a toughy.

Sprucey-OMG so Christmas Day is never the same,it seems that so many friends on Mums Net have died and I thought our life expectancy was at an all time high.

May you have a peaceful Christmas-Thanks again for all your support

I think mumsnet is a good place to talk, as you can talk as little or as much as you want and dont have to feel like broken record. I still feel immortal . Peace to you too!

Happy Christmas to all dealing with loss