She was 81.
I'm 36 weeks pregnant and live 120 miles from home.
She was ill. About 4 years ago she fell and broke her hip. After that she lost her independnce completely. Wouldn't go out on her own at all, even though she was strong enough. She was scared to. Then over the years she slowly got weaker and weaker. Her legs were wasting away because she wasn't using them. She then started to get confused at things. Asking where her mum was, and thinking her daughters, my mum included, were her sisters. She first went into hospital in october last year.
She thought the hospital was Marks and Spencer, where she worked years ago when my mum was a girl and the nurses worked in the stock room. We laughed at the time because she was adamant that is where she was.
She got better over Christmas, was quite lucid, only with the odd reference to M&S. She would joke with me about having the baby that by the time she had my mums youngest sister (4th) all she had to do was cough and she was born :).
They diagnosed dementia at the beginning of March and were looking at getting her and my grandad into sheltered housing. She had a nasty fall out of bed when my grandad had left her, just for 5 minutes to do something outside. Over night on Tuesday in hospital she had a stroke, but that still didn't see her off. She was tough as old boots my grandma. We thought that was it, but the next day she was sitting up in bed chatting away, a bit slurred, but was making the most sense she had in ages. But sadly this morning at 3am she left us.
I'm sorry if this isn't the place to post all this, but I just wanted to write something down.
My mum is so upset I can't speak to her on the phone. My hormones are all over the place I can't really string a sentence together without sobbing. I don't really know what to do. What I want to do is get home to my mum as soon as possible, but I can't drive the 2 hours there on my own. DH has gone to work, there is nothing he can do just now, so I'm just on my own. I don't know what to do.