I lost my Mum three weeks ago - the funeral is next Friday. It was a long battle with cancer but I saw her the day she died. I am not an hugely religious person but I do believe in God and an afterlife. All your threads have helped - I read them when my baby sleeps and I am on my own. I am in a fog sometimes - it does not feel real every day I keep saying I know my Mum loved me and I loved her. I miss her like a deep pain - part of my life is gone but I have the most wonderful baby and it helps to know other feel like I do. Thank you