anyone grieving or missing your mum.....

[tomhardyismydh]

I lost my mum 11 years ago today.

I had a deardfull feeling yesterday and put it to tye back of my mind.

I did not think about her today at all, but spent all day feeling sorry for my self with a heavy feeling over my head. I had some important work to for collge logged on today and cryed because it was all just to over whelming.

I feel s bad as I had nt given my wonderfull mum as second thought today.

my ds rang me and me tonight and when it finaly dawned n me it was tday I brke down on the phone and now im feeling so very guilty I had spent all day just feeling sorry for myself and forgot about my mum.

maybe I deliberatly shut it out. it feels like that dreadfull day 11 years ago all over again. as time passes it becomes easier t deal with but as the years roll by its so hard to have not had her in my life for these years and feels to long.

I just wish for more day with her, turn the clocks around and to feel and hear her again.

Just didn't want to leave this unanswered. So sorry to hear you are going through this.

I am sure someone in a similar boat will be along soon to hold your hand.

thanks temp.

Im feel ok now, I just had to put it out there somewhere as I dont know how Im ment to feel. I thoight I had got past that in the first year or 2, then 5 and now it seems more of a mile stone I hadnt realised exisisted.

Ill be fine tomorrow, im sure. thanks for your reply. x