miss my mum

[choclab]

10 weeks and 4 days is all it is ....since i lost my mum and best friend , i miss her voice and laughter and advice she always gave ..this i took for granted would always be there ....
im trying to hold it together as the rippling effect this has on those around me is hard i know ....so forgive me for not laughing at times and going quiet and withdrawn ....all i want is a cuddle and to be told it will be alright ....

but it cant can it as shes gone .....

miss you mummy so much xxxxx

Huge hugs for you

Do you have anyone close at this time that can support you?

thanks for hug , yes , having bad day today ....

And that's completely understandable choclab

Is there anyone with you tonight?

all asleep , ill be ok , just fining hard , been putting brave face on last few weeks trying to get back to "normal "for kids sake and DH ..and today just hit me again shes gone ...

I think in the immediate aftermath you go into shock and feel numb - its later on that it hits you. I lost my mum a year ago and still get waves of it even now. There is something so deep at the core of our relationships with our mums that makes us revert to feeling like fiver year olds - just want to kick and scream and shout "Its not fair!" And it isn't, its not fair, we all still need our mums however old we are.

10 weeks isn't very long, its ok to not go back to normal, your kids will understand when you say your sad because you miss your mum, your DH needs to know how upset you are so he can support you.

Let yourself grieve, be kind to yourself,

Hugest hugs, Sally

Cuppy, I think that absolutely true. We are all our mothers daughters, and we need them. And when they're gone, there is a huge, huge void.

Choc, please don't place too much strain on yourself trying to be strong and put on a brave face, especially for DH's saker. Turn to him for support.

You are going through one of the most stressful, hardest times, and your DH is there. Let him pick up the slack of all you probably do while you grieve.

thank you , i fell asleep in the end ,

i cant say much to DH , hes had enough of me i think ,
we r having some problems , thats going round in my head to ....
trying to hold it together as no (sorry some men ) man likes a crying wife do they ...

im so confused , loosing weight by the day with all the strss ....