Crying and Diazepam

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My mum died last week - it wasn't unexpected as she had been battling a brain tumour for the last 20 months. I was with her the whole of the last 3 weeks minus one night so it has been a "relief" in that she is now free of pain,no longer suffering and I can go home. But I have always been a very emotional person and cry at just about everything - happy and sad.It is a bit of a joke for people that know me. But now of course I am just crying so much - every time I have to tell anyone what has happened, any time that anyone even just asks how I am, whenI answer the door to the postman because I know that he's got more lovely cards for me, when I saw christmas decorations and realised that my mum wouldn't be here for any more christmases with my girls etc etc etc!
I have been to my GP and asked if she could give me anything that I could take to enable me to get through the funeral a bit more easily. Basically I know that I will end up with a migraine by the end of the day through crying so much.But I really want to try and be able to talk to some of the people that will be there who I haven't seen since childhood. She's given me some diazepam tablets - 3 to be taken throughout the day and one to practice with.I was going to practice today to see how it made me feel, but forgot,so will practice tomorrow but I'll be at work.
But does anyone know what diazepam will do? Will I be able to drive? How will it make me feel? Or do you have any other tips for getting me through the funeral?

PS - posting in Health as well as might get more replies.

So sorry, I have been in your position and it is very difficult.

Diazapam, depending on the dosage, is actually quite lovely . You just feel a bit fluffy, but it can make you feel a little dizzy or woozy so I wouldn't drive if I were you.

Give them a try out and see what happens, see if they stop you from feeling so emotional, they may do, or they may just make you feel a bit distracted.

If it's any help, I actually found the funerals of both of my parents the easy bit. It was so nice to see everyone and there was a kind of tension that held everything together. I don't think I cried at either.

When the funeral was over and everybody went home, it was a slightly different matter. I suddenly realised they weren't there to tell me how well I'd done.

You are going to cry, people expect you to cry, nobody will mind if you cry.

You must do whatever you need to.