I lost my dad in march and it would have been his 70th today. I went to his house and looked through the window and felt so sad as there are stll lots of his things there. He always had big birthday parties and this one would have been massive. Put flowers on his grave whilst sobbing - phew i feel so sad. i suppose its all part of grief and important to feel and acknowledge it as my usual life is so busy that i don't think about him often - too painfull. I feel very subdued.