My BIL passed away 20 months ago and I'm struggling.
He comitted suicide, leaving behind a beautiful DD and a very loving family.
DH isn't coping very well either - almost like he's stopping himself grieving properly as he doesn't know how he will cope if he lets go.
So many un-answered questions still going round in our heads, I thought we'd learnt to not keep going round and round in the same circle but turns out we are, just in our own heads without talking to each other about it.
DD1 who is the eldest of 3 misses him massively, DD2 is forgetting fast and DD3 has no idea as she was only 3 months old when it happened.
I'm just still so unbearably sad :(