My half sister has died before I could meet her.

[dropinthe]

Was so busy talking about it on here-it was too late.I can't see for my tears.

Am going to look on some other threads to keep me sane-can't believe how many people are going to the London Meetup.

I'm so sorry to hear that Dropinthe, don't know the circumstances, but I just wanted to send a lot of .

Thanks-I was too late that's all.

Thanks for everyone's support-am going to sleep now-if you see me on other threads on other days,don't blame me-Mumsnet has helped me a great deal in various ways over the last 6 months-I have stopped smoking which I couldn't have done without my Fag Free Laydeez-I've made lots of friends-I've had HUNDREDS of laughs and have admired many spirits on here-you always amaze me every day and I couldn't be without my mumsnet-I think you are all great, whether I agree with you or not, and feel very priviledged to have found this site full of such wonderful mums.

MLL-

MLL-

Sorry for your loss - cant think of anything to say that isnt a cliche.

Oh dropinthe.. I'm so so sorry.

so sorry to hear the sad news

I woke up this morning and rang a friend who told me that my sister probably didn't want me to see her in the advance stages of cancer-she was unable to talk anymore as couldn't breathe properly.
I feel so guilty that I didn't let her know sooner that I was thinking of her-if I had just sent her the flowers two weeks ago she would have known-I can't forgive myself for that.
Part of me is hurt that I meant so little to their family that I wasn't informed and then I just think they must be hurting so much that it was inconceivable to even think about telling me.
I am hoping that I still get a chance to meet the other half sister and brother I have-when we found out about each other we were all so excited-this was less than a year ago.
So much has changed with this terrible cancer ripping the life from such a young woman-she was 42.
She leaves behind a daughter of 20 and a son who I think is 16-one day, they might be able to tell me about their wonderful Mum and I will be able to share photos's/stories about her life.
The only picture I have got is when she was in her teens and all I see is myself looking back at me.The other two don't look like me but she really did-she was the special one I really wanted to meet.
Life really kicks where it hurts.

Just to let you know I'm thinking of you today.

Thank you-I don't feel very "thought of" at the moment.

I've been thinking of you too, this was the first thread i looked for today.

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so sorry to hear this dropinthe, lots of love & hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'm so sorry, I followed your thread, and found it so very sad. Sorry it ended like this.

not sure what to do now though.

drop! I'm so so so sorry I missed all this. I haven't been on the net much the last few days as dd and I have had a horrible fluey virus. I can't find your original thread about this now either, but I remember you talking about your sister on 'our' threads.

Thinking of you. xxx

Thanks Mll-my original thread was in the health section regarding her cancer and how I dithered whether to contact her as I hadn'e heard anytging for a few weeks.Just didn'tt quite realise HOW ill she really was-I was just too late-I sent her some flowers yesterday and her Mum rang me in tears.There wasn't any apologies for not letting me know so I was a bit hurt but understand entirely now why.

I m really sorry for your loss. Have been in a similar situation with father - but thats another story. Its a cliche but the pain does get better with time. As unfair as it is, and without trying to apportion blame, this is a situation which has been forced upon you by the actions of others. Guilt, anger, and the what if../ if only... , feelings are natural and will fade in time. I still wonder what if... and occaisonally feel anger/guilt but they are no longer accompanied with raging emotions. Try to look to the future and feel positive, your half sister is part of a whole dimension to your family. Once they have started to come to terms with their loss i hope that you will all be able to come together. Another cliche - but life is really too short.

You are very right-it is! Thank you for being so eloquent.