It occurred to me today that I have been waiting for ds2 to talk, in order better to understand what makes him tick. I've been looking forward to discovering what he is like - because even though he communicates in various ways, he is still esssentially an unknown quantity without the ability to express his thoughts. Feelings is easy - cry, smile, laugh - but thoughts is another issue.
Today he spoke clearly for almost the first time, in a proper sentence and with a proper premise, ie he was playing a little game and told me repeatedly as he skipped along, 'I'm a monster! I'm a monster!'
The weirdest thing (apart from hearing him say 'I'm' about himself instead of his name!) was that it felt foreign to me - it was as though this child was suddenly almost a stranger to me. He is 2 and a half and has been slow at developing speech, but until now I assumed he would think a certain way, and speak in a certain way, and he doesn't - and now I'm worried in case I don't like him after all that!
I've had no problem bonding and feeling utter incomparable love for him up to now, but was that all based on my own construct rather than the boy himself?
Help.