My mood.
I have concluded that after 5 years of behaviour problems with my boy (i have moaned and whinged about him on here over and over) that it directly relates to the way i am feeling at the time.
So for example,He was agressive, unco-operative, bouncing off the walls, incapable of sitting still or focussing on what he was doing.
This i felt was a humongous issue,imo he had something wrong with him, what was i going to do, i couldnt cope, every body hates him, its all my fault..doom doom doom.
However, having weened off ads, lets face it, i was not at my best therefore, was not performing at my best in the old parenting dept (or life dept to be quite frank).
Now, after much talking/debating/crying/conflab between me and Dh, we have a plan, i feel better, and hey presto, we have a new boy, who is lurvly, and mangagable.
So to conclude, everything seems much worse when in the pit that is depression, however, when you start to climb upwards, and the sunlight comes through,its not a bad old world and im not a crap old mother and my boy is actualy perfectly normal and healthy and im a very lucky lady to have all that i have.