I'm exhausted. I'm surviving off little to 0 sleep, to the point where I feel delusional and almost like I'm floating.
My 4 month old is a high need baby, and its almost like i have him superglued onto me. He won't be put down for more than a few seconds to a minute or 2 without crying. I don't mind during the day, because it is what it is. However, at night is a different story. He wakes up every 20-45 minutes all night, and screams until I pick him up and latch him. I've always hated cosleeping and never did it with my first, but he won't sleep anywhere other than physically in my arms. Its not good for his posture, and not good for me because I don't actually sleep... Hes in my arms, and still wakes up every 20-45 minutes anyhow.
I tried letting him whine/cry for a minute or two last night, and he went sick all over himself and the bed... I don't know what to do. I can't function, I'm having migraines daily, and Im slowly losing myself😠I dread going to bed, because when hes sleeping... my body isn't allowing me to shut off, and is almost waiting for him to wake up. I have a 4 yead old, and I just feel awful that im sooo exhausted.
I've always baked cakes/savoury bits when my mental health is bad, and it always gets me through. But, i can't even get through baking a cake without him screaming to pick him up... ive tried using a baby carrier, still fusses.
I just feel so lost and dont know what to do! Any advice or help appreciated 💕