This might sound a bit odd, but, I often cringe at myself, my actions, conversations, comments, body language, and awkwardness, especially when I feel I don’t speak enough or lack social skills. I know it’s a common human experience, but for me, it goes a step further. Quite often, I hallucinate the cringe, I’ll remember whole conversations that never happened, or imagine myself acting in ways I never actually did. It can take a while before I realise I’ve exaggerated or invented these memories, and I have to talk myself down and remind myself it wasn’t as bad as I remember.
I guess I’m sharing this partly because it feels a bit weird, but also to see if anyone else experiences this. Is there a psychological explanation? Maybe I’m just thinking out loud for the benefit of anyone who finds this later and wonders the same thing… I’ll probably cringe at this post too, right after sharing it.