So I have to ask other people because I cannot ask anybody I know because I still don't know what I'm going to do because I am very confused. I am 39, I have two children, 10 and 11, and I have now found out that I am pregnant. My dad died last week. The pregnancy test is saying that I am one to two weeks pregnant. With death comes life, obviously, but I am scared. Financially, I'm okay, but it's not flush, and my boys would be buzzing. That's why it has to be hush-hush because they always ask me for a sibling, a little girl or a little boy. They've asked me for years, and I don't want to tell them unless until I know for sure that I'm keeping it. The father is their father, same man, who I split up with when they were like three, four years old, and there was a lot of conflict and he was horrendous and there was stalking and horrendous stuff. In the last two years, we were co-parenting quite well, but while I was dealing with my dad, who was so sick, he crept in and we had sex and now I'm pregnant, and I don't know what to do. I don’t want to be with him