Hi fellow mums, I'm desperately looking for advice or anecdotes.
I have got a 2 year old son who is truly so sweet and smart and I feel privileged I get to watch him grow up and spend the rest of my life with him.
But it is very, very difficult, and it seems to not just be a phase. All morning and evening, all he does is cry and say "up mommy, up mommy" on repeat. He doesn't want his dad or sister, no matter how hard they try. TV might distract him for a bit - but mostly unsuccessful. He is a TERRIBLE sleeper and eater as well, really barely eats anything. He sleeps with my husband and I (well, in our bed but with me) and I cannot get up before him in the morning to get myself ready as he will wake up too. Morning is a cryfest. Then I have to do a 1 hour journey to and from work with him as his nursery is near my workplace. And that is very difficult as well.
I was a SAHM until he was 21 months old, he goes full-time nursery. I get that maybe he misses me but it is unbelievably stressful. Many morning journeys to work I try to stay calm but I just can't hold back the tears. I feel so stressed out about the constant crying and that unless I am holding him he is unhappy and upset- we start the day and end it like this, and ofc, once he is asleep I have got a house to clean, have to shower etc. I feel I have no identity, cannot get anything done for myself (cleaning my face in the morning is the most stressful part of my day as he's just stood next to me screaming wanting me to pick him up). I am anxious and don't get great sleep ever.
I feel the stress is really getting to me, and my partner feels really bad for me but also is not enjoying parenting that much because of this, as he feels he cannot get close to our son.
And yes, I have tried many many times not picking him up as I simply have to get on with stuff, but it never helps, just gets worse, which increases my stress.
ANY advice is GREATLY appreciated!!