I’m at my wits end. I actually feel like crying and/or leaving the family home (I’d never do this but fantasise about it frequently).
My 5yo DS is bright, funny, energetic, loving and very strong willed. And he has a temper, that as the main care giver and boundary setter is frequently directed at me. Today he has screamed he hates me, called me stupid, mocked my tone of voice and facial expressions and smacked me really hard in the leg. Numerous meltdowns about various things: hungry but declining all food offered. Dislikes clothes. Won’t accept me setting boundaries such as not winding up his brother, not winning a game etc etc. pretty innocuous things. This is a bad day but these things are daily.
I feel so down about it. It actually feels like it’s ruining our family life (me, DH and DS3). He’s fine at school it’s just at home and with me.
I have all these thoughts that I wish I hadn’t had kids, that he is going to grow up to be an angry man. I feel sick and anxious at the end of these days. I’m on antidepressants already.
Help.