I need someone to talk to. I'm feeling completely broken as a mum of 3 boys. 12, 11 & 3. The constant arguments in the house between the older two is unreal. Also they way they speak to me and their dad is not on. They never know when to stop. We have boundaries and consequences which neither of the them care about. The oldest one believes he never does anything wrong. He's a very angry child. He thinks everyone hates him. Probably doesn't help that when I've finally lost my shit I say some horrible things. I'm so lost. When he eventually calms down he says that he understands what's happened, but then the following day or even later that day it's the same thing. I do think there's some other issues there but obviously trying to get him seen by someone is a long wait. We are waiting for an appointment with psicon for some testing. I've contemplated not being around as I feel it's my fault for them being this way and I don't know how else to cope. I just don't know know what to do anymore. Everything I do is for my children, but as this point in time I don't know what else to do.