It's been one of those days. Everything was a no. She tore her room apart playing and now the place looks like we've been burgled. She had a meltdown when I asked her to put something back. She screamed so much in the car I nearly drove into the back of someone. I got a parking ticket because she refused to leave the play park (£70 that could have been used to go to legoland or another fun day out).
I'm sat on my sofa crying. We read a bedtime book called "my mummy always looks after me" and tears were running down my face. I didn't look after her. I shouted at her when I just couldn't take it any more. I had tried to put her in a safe place and go into another room to calm down but she just chased after me, screaming and hanging off my legs. She saw me cry in frustration when I couldn't handle the screaming any more. I got into actual full on arguments with a completely unreasonable toddler because I was just trying to console myself (I figured if I explained she might get it but she just shouted at me). I tried so hard and failed so miserably.
Please give me inspiration for dealing with these days. I wish today never happened.